To My Vampire

Is there a reason

I yearn for the pain?

Does the idea of feeding you

Make more sense to my brain?

My life could mean something,

If my blood were your sustenance

When I want something bad enough,

I have a high pain tolerance.

Does it sound insane to imagine you at night,

Holding me close until I fall asleep?

Sometimes I hope that I never wake up,

But I know I’ll never willingly take that quantum leap.

So, why is it then that when I think of you,

Your kind,

The beast you could so easily be,

I’m so tempted to let you inside.

Death would come for me,

As I lay in your arms,

But would you even question,

Who would it harm?

I know I’d be missed,

That’s why I never act.

If you’d do it for me,

At least I wouldn’t feel so trapped.